Aw, this really hurt heart!
Heather Matarazzo got stuck this week and decided to really open up about it.
Former child star, who you may know as Dawn Weiner from the cult classic Welcome to Doll House or like Lilly royal BFF in Princess Diaryarrived Twitter only to let her frustrations with the industry fly away, tweeting then deleting:
“I hit my limit with Life Today. I hit my limit with whatever game the Universe was playing. I have finished. I’m tired. I really feel like I’ve lost my throne. “
“I feel down because I feel like I’ve WORKED for a long time with no complaints. I have taken disappointments, rejections, etc., and asserted that rejection is diversion. I have continuously had FAITH in the Universe, but today something broke. I feel left out… I have dedicated my life to acting for over 30 years. And I’m done fighting just to survive. “
Before deleting, she ended her words with:
“I just need one win. A life-changing victory. Because this is not it. F**k. ”
OH! We really feel for Heather here! It’s a rare look at another side of Hollywood that you haven’t seen, industry professionals in decline who just can’t keep up.
It seems to have been going on for a while as she opened up earlier in a 2017 interview with Guardians that she had actually considered suicide over a period of many years prior to which she was unable to find work:
“I was wondering, ‘What kind of twisted and sick universe is this?’ The fact that I am still here is a miracle in itself.”
She also explained in the interview that she does NOT make a lot of money as a working actress – who is not a movie star:
“Most people think I can get paid a lot. But I really don’t, and most of the actors working on it don’t. I drive the f**king Prius and I just bought my first new pair of shoes in over two years. There is an ‘untouchable’ and made-up image of the actors, where they live this lavish and beautiful life. But in reality, that’s not the experience.”
She even said at the time that she considered supplementing her income by driving for Lyft. That’s real life, guys.
A lot of love went out to Heather following her posts, with the cast and fans sending messages of support.
But on Friday afternoon, Heather commented on the unexpected attention she’s received, dismissing the most serious fan concerns and explaining that this is a passing bout of depression:
“Obviously it was a slow news day this week and a bunch of my tweets hit the tabloids. Let me start by saying thank you to everyone who has reached out to me via DM, text, and email. I’m so appreciative and yes, I’ve read them all.”
“I also look forward to sharing this: We are all human, myself included. When I shared my frustration about where I was in my life/career the day before, it was simply a moment. Anyone who has gone through a MAJOR career streak like me over the past few months will probably feel the same way. I can see now that my choice of words was alarming for som and that is something I regret. “
“The biggest lesson from this experience that I will take with me in the future is this:
1. Twitter is NOT my friend.
2. Instead of tweeting about how I’m feeling, I’ll be reaching out DIRECTLY with my friends.
3. If I can’t reach any friends or I don’t want to talk, I write in my trusted diary.
4. My community is the best and I am a very lucky individual. ”
We are very happy that she has received so much support. And while we understand she doesn’t want that much attention at such low levels, we appreciate the brutal honesty about Hollywood – not something we see a lot of.
For almosts, we just have to say that we love Heather. We are so happy to see her back in the new drama Screaming movies and mother of two of the best characters to boot. We hope with all the casting announcements coming up for the sequel, we’ll hear something about the return of Martha, Randy’s sister!
Much love, Miss Matarazzo!
[Image via Disney+/Heather Matarazzo/Instagram.]